Bullet Proof Soul


Waiting for the verdict to be read, my heart became heavy. I didn’t want to seem negative, but the results seemed obvious. Predictable. Our lives are often devalued. We are treated as less than human, while marksmen point their artillery at our skulls… we have grown BULLET PROOF SOULS, to survive. In this land of the free, home of the brave or home of the [slave]? In times of distress, I have to lift myself. So let’s Get Lifted in the music. Today, I choose, Sade. Her voice soothes me and reminds me of how powerful I am. We are powerful. I am goddess soul, floating in a dimension, above this, this state of chaos. We will wake up. And you will watch us…

… and although the decision made in Cleveland today was not surprising at all, it still hit me like a slow bullet. My mind, my heart, my soul, goes out to my people. We suffer. But. We are the strongest alive. When there was nothing to prove, my ancestors proved it. When there was no way to move, my ancestors created, innovated. And so will we. Dig this poetry…

THE lyrics of SADE…

I was so in love with you
You rarely see a love that’s true
Wasn’t that enough for you
Wasn’t that enough for you
I would climb a mountain
I wouldn’t want to see you fall
Rock climb for you
And give you a reason for it all

You kept on thinking
You were the only one
Too busy thinking
Love is a gun

Hit me like a slow bullet 
Like a slow bullet
It took me some time to realise it

You keep on thinking
You were the only one
Too busy thinking
Love is a gun

I know the end before
The story’s been told
It’s not that complicated
But you’re gonna need a bullet proof soul

You keep on thinking
You were the only one
Too busy thinking
Love is a gun

I know the end before
The story’s been told
It’s not that complicated
But you’re gonna need a bullet proof soul

You were trigger happy baby
You never warned me let me free
It’s not that complicated
But you’re going to need a bullet proof soul
Think you got it but you got all the trouble you need
I came in like a lamb
But I intend to leave like a lion

It hit me like a slow bullet
It hit me like a slow bullet

-I am Shila, thank you for reading.

peace and blessings manifest with every LESSON learned. I’ve been hit with bullets for almost 2 years now. The final shot taken at my heart. I bled. From September to December. My heart sank. My mind blank. It took a lot for me to come alive, again. I have been so determined not to find my happiness and worth in the smile of another. The foundation of my worth is ME. I am always happy to be alone. In those moments, my soul is well fed. We all have to learn. I have. Peace.



She is the One


She is ageless,
75 and contagious
The most high,
I can see her in my dreams
Everything about her screams
timeless beauty,
loving me unconditionally to her last breath
Masterful with her words, self less
she is the strongest,
untouchable, but she touches
I am her.
I shine like the Sun when she comes.
I am going to walk across this room
and embrace her
Hold her in my arms
I need her heart,
so she gives it
she erases the pain of the past
She sees thru to the truth
can’t let her go,
she touched me
with the hands of a mother
The love of a true friend
A flower. For her.
She deserves the world.
Non-restricting lover
She is ageless,
41, the insanist
I can feel the wisdom,
but the youth is forever there
She knows how to have fun
I stare. At her.
When she speaks, I am knee deep in her mystery
She eats the vines and drinks the wine
goddess soul
moves like a sea serpent,
controlling the air above the waters
makes it rain and then dances
sees thru to the future
as she let’s go of the past
Aware of the matrix
her love lasts
She belongs to the sky’s,
the Most High
I’m in love
She is the One.
She is ageless.
Respect to the courageous,
mothers of me.
I am listening.

Thank you for reading.

My name is Shila. I like that name a lot. Thank you mother for naming me something real cool.

In this world I am learning that we must love ourselves more and more each day. Not in a narcissistic fashion, but in high esteem type of way, because we are taught to love the images of others, and cater to the needs of another, while neglecting ourselves. Gender roles can be confusing. I will let you be You, because I love you. Know that, I am Shila first. Respect.


You Got the Juice (awakened by the light of gods)


I really dig you. Not like I’m playing my hand between one and two, like I’m going to stop doing what I’m doing for you. Beautiful Black Beauty, I’m feeling you. you Denzellin, and Yasiin Beyin, and you got me sayin, I ain’t on the social media proclaiming, I’m in your bedroom playing, like, I’m really into you. We can keep a secret, but it’s not one. Cause they see the way I look at you, I didn’t trade you, I waited and let my heart heal before I came to you. no strings attached to me, no puppeting, no mysteries, no fake stories to cover the truth, we are together in this moment, eatin the fruits of my words, of your actions, you brought me light and I am grateful.

I am down for you. You can transform into the Sun, cause I’mma be the Moon, always lightin the night, for you. Daytime struggles, you got my back. call me in the morning as a matter of fact, i answer, cause I want to hear the Word, i feel the god in you. Morph into a vortex, spinning, you solve complex equations that my mind can’t decipher, i get on my Knees, you take me higher. Praise. Planting seeds everyday, control minds with a bassline, heads bobbin. You speak like a King, serious esophagus, You came. Into this dimension to make sure I heard the alabaster stories of my peoples. You my people. i don’t want to put you in a box, I want you to grow and grow and get better. your wisdom. is like. … i want you to be as great as I am. goddess to God, you got the Juice, to produce the frequencies, that run through me. electricity. shock waves. we Up. in the middle of a storm, meditating in the eyes of the other. My story got reallll interesting, when I met you, forever in my heart, you got the key. use it.

__________________________________________________________  This poem is inspired by one of the most intelligent recording artists/MCs I have ever heard, Mos Def, who became Yasiin Bey. The gritty, the grimey, the witty, the wise, I admire Yasiin because he takes risks and uses his energy to alert the world on what’s really going on. We all should be waking up! Moreover, my words are inspired by those who are a part of me, whom I resonate with daily, or enough, like Brandon, who really is one of the best people that I know. He is a harsh reality wrapped in a soft truth. Glad to know you brotha… and my sisters, goddesses and gods. Through your grace, I continue.

Yasiin Bey Interview

Black Jack Johnson N.Y.C., R-O-C-K-I-N-G
Sun and the moon, earths, stars, and planets
Before song done y’all goin’ all understand it…

Ha, I am a fighter and a lover
I’m the freaky baby daddy, I’m a bad motherfucker
I’m the earth, wind, fire, and the thunder
I said I am, go ask my mother…

peace and blessings manifest with every lesson learned
-i am shila iris